This hopefully is going to be a short post. I don't know what it is about today, but I feel so alone and isolated. I am still reeling with grief at my failed FET but have to function like a normal person....go in to work, smile, make small talk..I don't know act strong when I am all broken inside, feeling hopeless and helpless.
I look to my husband for comfort but he has his own life. He has moved on from the loss. He talks about all his friends kids and how cute and playful they are. And when he does that all I can think about is how worthless I am that I cannot even give him a child. I feel punished, deserted and my heart just hurts. I want some divine intervention, I need to know my husband cares about me and that we will get through this together and not in isolation.
God when will all this end...when will I be able to wake up again without an ache in my heart. When will I be able to stand up for myself and my feelings.
I look to my husband for comfort but he has his own life. He has moved on from the loss. He talks about all his friends kids and how cute and playful they are. And when he does that all I can think about is how worthless I am that I cannot even give him a child. I feel punished, deserted and my heart just hurts. I want some divine intervention, I need to know my husband cares about me and that we will get through this together and not in isolation.
God when will all this end...when will I be able to wake up again without an ache in my heart. When will I be able to stand up for myself and my feelings.